Today, I bought a car.
More importantly, I drove my father and a salesman in a new car in a new area and even onto a 70mph road.
Without my calming music, P-plates or even my water bottle.
My usual driving style of talking anxiously was something new to both of them. But considering the salesman said it would be best if one of my parents drove it instead – before I’d even sat inside it… well, I’m not confident if someone else isn’t confident in me.
But I did it.
I drove up to 70mph for the first time; in a strange car, strange road and with two people who have never seen me drive.
And it went fine. There was a one-way system and a bus and parked cars blocking the road and the car is 10 inches bigger than the one I usually drive. But I did it.
It’s a Peugeot, which my partner and I have some personal jokes about (Top Gear’s Richard Hammond makes jokes doing impressions of the front grill which are funny too). It’s also the car just one below the 307 I learnt to drive in.
Fear is Temporary
The more I push myself to do scary things; the less scary they become.
But it’s more than that. The more I push my boundaries, the wider my boundaries become.
I think “If I can drive a strange car on a strange road, can I live alone?” or “If I can write a novel and submit it to a publisher, can I handle starting an emotionally-demanding job?”
I’m not “faking it til I make it” or “becoming a whole new me”. I’m just easing out the conditioning and redefining how I want to be. Each step of this alchemy journey has a strong foundation behind it.
How could you redefine yourself?
What boundaries are feeling a bit tight?
– Rose –
Do you wish to redefine a fear? Let me help with your journey. Head over to the Alchemy Forge and fire up your dreams.